Luke 14:33

My life is no longer my life. It is now His life.

My time is no longer my time. It is now His time.

My possessions are no longer my possessions. They are now His possessions.

My body is no longer my body. It is now His body.

My marriage is no longer my marriage. It is now His marriage.

My future is no longer my future. It is now His future.

"...any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be My disciple."

- Jesus Christ

One of the BEST sermons I've EVER heard.

You may think that you just can't do the whole 2 hours. Well, I strongly encourage you to watch this in increments, then.

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child.

For a long time, I have been trying to deny what I already know to be true in my heart. And, to say the least, it's devastating. There have been many times in the past where I have felt unloved, betrayed, or abused at the hands of my mom. Yesterday's revelation, though, has hammered in some sort of final nail and has shown me just how selfish, cruel, and heartless someone can be when they are loaded with bitterness and refuse to turn to the Lord.

I heard Three Dog Night's "Easy to Be Hard" this morning while driving home from work. It's pretty sad to immediately associate some of the lyrics with my mom.

It's also pretty sad to feel like this:

What can I do but cast my cares upon Him (I Peter 5:7)? Nothing. I thank God I'm not alone, even when I feel that I am. Maybe I really am a motherless child in a figurative way.